music bad girl by b2st
feeling unwanted and congested

happy birthday rakshitha!

kris kringle in my group today was major fail, yet so hilarious to watch at the same time rofl. poor vivian, had to write out copies of names like a million times. we had to draw names out of genevieve's cat hat at least five times due to people being totally unhappy with the name they got, people telling or people swapping. presents due on 10th december!

year assembly today was actually enjoyable. how embarrassing, i stuffed up the national anthem, not my fault i had to do it on the spot, please dont laugh at me. our new years advisors are set to be entertaining, ive never really talked to miss sayed properly, but people say shes cool so ill believe that judgement for now. looking forward to mr geerling being all serious and supportive when we come to him for help though :p speech for creating connections, i think i spoke rather fast or something yeah? haha list of leaders up on year 10 noticeboard upstairs. and i got an award for english, yay. congratulations to all those who are going presentation night, esp you margaret, nerdass for maths :p

anyway, yesterday was grace's party yeah? well technically, it was thang's, michael's and andrew's. i really can't be bothered to blog about it because i'm sick from it rofl, but me and vanessa had like a massive hangover today. from too much singstar, of course. it was fun, we all love your brothers' parties, grace, theyre so awesome, invite us next year :d

warning: next section of this blog is rather reflective and i dare say, deep

so genevieves started a trend of reflecting back on this year. and im going to follow because two thousand and nine has changed me, in more ways than one.

firstly, i sorted out my life. i figured out what i wanted, what i didnt want, what i needed and who i needed. i sieved through my social environmental and left the people who were bringing me down. i know ive written about this before, but my small group of thirteen friends along with my bffls (and brother haha) who are spreaded out everywhere, are who make me happy.

my music taste has further widened. my ipod has always seen rnb and emo clashing in the same library, but this year meant more kpop, jpop and alternative. go big bang, super junior, b2st in particular.

i got to know someone in particular who came into my life at the perfect time, and changed it dramatically for the better. hes persevered and gone through so much with me in such a small amount of time, it really amazes me. you know who you are and i hope things get better for us soon.

my birthday made me realise a lot. ive written about this too many times but not only does it rank amongst the top five or so best days in my life, it made me change my whole perspective on birthdays and birthday presents. at least half of the grade chipped in for my guitar. why? simply because it was my birthday, and they wanted me to be happy. and that feeling that i got when i saw the guitar, and when the happy birthday was sung, can not compare to anything. it made me happy. now, i see birthdays as more than just an anniversary, i see it as an opportunity for me to put a smile on someones face, whether it be through a physical object presented under gift wrap and secured with a ribbon, or by repeatedly telling them happy birthday twenty three thousand times until they tell me to shut up. (im pretty sure alvin wasnt happy by the time his birthday ended rofl). recently, giving santosh and alvin their birthday presents made them happy, which made me happy. i want people to feel what they made me feel on my birthday.

i was motivated to do well and study hard in my exams, more than ever. the effort i put into science to compensate for the 42% in my half yearlies even surprised myself, resulting in a 82%, my best science mark i think :)

thats all for now, you'll probably be seeing a part two soon.

Labels: creating connections, dedication

quick update: happy birthday santosh! ♥ thanks for being an awesome japanese buddy, this year have made me much closer to you and i love more than just your eyelashes now, your sense of humour and how you care about my pms rofl. enjoy india, boy :)

OWL CITY is amazing. I'm addicted to the track Fireflies, thanks Nicholas for suggesting Vanilla Twilight! Gosh, I haven't exchanged music with that boy in ages, the only person I know so far who's music interest is as diverse and similar to mine! p.s. your haircuts fine, dont know why everyones making a fuss. honestly.

stayed up till 2 with rayray quoc hung yesterday. remember, no drinking or i disown you.

updated my lastfm, link's in the about section. camp blog below is still in progress if anyone's bothering to read! currently compiling christmas wish list :D i feel somewhat selfish but hey, it's christmas, tis the season for giving! hahaha. yeah i am selfish.

the carlos,
the concussion,
the cramp:
the camp
Thanks Rakshitha, Grace and various other Facebook people I stole these from :D



23-11-09 First Day, Alvin Chung's Birthday
Group 6: Rafting, Beach Games
♥ double decker bus, baby! the ride was fairly short and the first thing we did when we got there was have lunch. the whole routine at collaroy was basically activity, eat, activity, eat, activity, eat, so many afternoon/morning teas and stuff rofl. the cordial was absolutely horrendous.
♥ cabin number 4! first thing vanessa did was pull down her mattress, so i decided to join her. if we werent gonna have a sleepover, might as well at camp. it was fun. things heated up ;) joking.
♥ me and vivian were at first annoyed to find out we had both of the beach activities on the first day! turns out it was to our advantage, as it was raining the next day haha.
♥ group 6 is the freaking sex, no questions asked. as a leader on the lookout for potential co-leaders next year, i was seriously amazed at how encouraging and cooperative everybody was. the atmosphere provided by everyones enthusiasm really brightened up camp for me. you guys are the best group ever!
♥ raft building turned out better than i thought, except the fact that no one could jump in for a swim except for the two raft riders. our team worked really well together, i reckon. the other team, group 7, who we had to compete against, their raft just fell apart in the pool, so basically their rider was just swimming with poles. at least our raft stayed together! until jordan kerr did a massive jump and all the barrels popped out :L gg.
♥ beach games, such a bludge, didnt do anything. there was somewhat a weak attempt at a game of soccer, where mr kearney was our goalie. there was a mini mini goal, so mr kearney decided we should use cones instead. so i saw that as an opportunity to pick up the goal and run around with it, protecting myself. and everytime the ball got close to me but i didnt want to get hit, id chuck the goal onto it and everyone would be like, where the heck did that come from :L. got bored, so vivian decided to 'amputate' my leg. some people actually believed it i think. then we decided we needed a photo, so we called rak over and she's just like "are you serious" :L





♥ after that was of course dinner, then back to cabins for an hour of free time. what did my cabin do during this time? we figured out a shower timetable, cos we nerds like that. we named our two ensuites, #1 and #2, the name speaks for itself haha, and there were all these terms and conditions like, "the last person to shower has to wipe up the floor." and miss milner walked in later and saw it and was full astonished rofl.
♥ the night hike was so much fun, now that i think about it, and i dont know why i complained. the walk there involved me and mitchell singing a lot of kpop songs out loud, and michelle complaining about being cold and listening and judging our vocal abilities. got there, to the highest point, and looked around. it was loverrrrrly, the lights plastered and spreaded out against the dark night sky. it was moments like that that made me miss people a whole lot more. sat there on the highest point for a bit, before lawrence came and joined me and we decided to swap jumpers. so he wore my cardigan for the rest of the way back. he looked better in it than i did. lawrences jumper was so warm.
♥ "wendys boobs always has reception" margaret. wow i do have special powers. teachers were so easy this camp. which resulted in most of us staying up late on phones, ipods or whatever haha.

24-11-09 Dragon Tails and Concussion
Group 6: giant swing, high ropes, rock climbing, vertical challenge
♥ issy decides to go on giant swing first, and troi oi, she terrified the rest of the group rofl. im such a bad leader, honestly, instead of setting a good example, i was all shaky as i approached the ladder, and as i was getting pulled up, i was covering my face, mildly screaming. then, when it was my turn to pull the rope, i had to yank it three and a half times before i fell. the first three times i pulled it, i didnt drop, and yet i was already screaming :L everybody must have found that extremely hilarious.
♥ i dont know why i got so worked up about high ropes. as soon as i clipped to go down the final ladder, i was like, aw cant believe its over, why didnt i enjoy it instead of breaking down. i wasnt nervous about it at all, until i had to finish the first course, walking along the single rope with just another rope to hold on to. far out, should've just ran across it, cos yknow, if you fall, nothing happens, you just kinda hang there, or fly around or whatever :L
♥ rock climbing, troi oi, so much struggling, quite a few people couldnt even get past the net onto the rock climbing board, and i was one of them. i really don't trust that stupid belay poles to keep me up, honestly, looks so weak. oh well, group 6 was really encouraging and everytime someone rang the bell we'd full cheer and everything, it was really nice :D

♥ vertical challenge! not visible in the example photo up there, but there was a rope ladder and a string, before reaching the rock climbing board. omg had to get into groups of 3, so veronica vivian and i. we let veronica go first cos she's fast as. then it was my turn. i nearly gave up at the freaking start of the board, but no, had to keep going (due to a certain kind of motivation) and yeah, thankyou so much to my group and veronica's encouragement as she was standing on the board. wouldnt have made it without you guys. but next time, please, more specific instructions instead of yelling at the top of your lungs the green one, the bloody green one :P kidding, i love you guys. in the last few metres, my belay team just pulled me up rofl. and same for vivian.

the only loser posing in that photo, would be me
♥ games night. this is where i almost died. how exciting. yeah, so we were playing the dragon's tail game, the whole grade sits in a circle, and ten people at a time gets a black cloth, shoves it in their pocket with it hanging out, runs around, trying to pull out the other 9 people's cloths. kinda like oztag. i wasnt too keen on being watched by the rest of the grade as i run around and fail, so i didnt volunteer. until i got one thrown at me, for an "all girls round", and this was where my troubles began! it was fun, running around, enjoying it, the adrenaline i guess, me and grace were like full on, and i remember thinking "shit man, she's tank, why mess with her for" rofl. something something happened, and it was only me and veronica left in the game, and we fell over a couple of times, but yeah, i won! oh well, didnt matter, group 6 co leaders and leaders ftw haha. then after a few more rounds, there was an all champions round, so i had to get up, and all my friends were being rly nice, encouraging me so im like what the hey. yeah, it was fun, i eliminated around 3-4 people, the last being rohan where there was this massive roar from the rest of the grade, haha, it was uplifting. then somehow it ended up only being me and kyle! omg scary shit man. so we were just like, facing each other, jumping around and whatnot, then suddenly im on the floor and my head's numb. and vanessa rushes over, and the grade's boo-ing kyle, aw. and this is where i lost my memory and not sure what happens till im back in the auditorium, lying on the stage. head's still numb and tingling, miss milner asks me if i remember anything, i say no, so she takes me to medical clinic. mr kearney came along, yay, he was fun to talk to haha. doctor says i was fine, just concussion. went back. miss milner bought me rapid panadol. miss sayed saved me a cookie from supper. entered my cabin, michelle was crying cos she was worried about me how cute :P then yeah, head killed so quickly got into bed. at school, the grade and the teachers kept asking if im okay, even teachers who werent there. all the guys are like, "wendy ran into a brick wall" and someone was like "no, a brick wall ran into wendy", brick wall being kyle rofl. hilarious, but yeah, he came up to me on wednesday and apologised, it was an accident anyways :)
♥ i heard jacqueline's cabin had wedding dress by taeyang on repeat. well mine, we had bad girl by b2st on repeat, all of us crowding around and going crazy when aj winks in the video! farrrr outtttttt, three days of b2st omg, well spent, girls, well spent :p

25-11-09 Home Time
Group 6: Flying fox, challenge
♥ Not much happened today so really briefly, thankyou to everyone who checked up on me! I even got a really nice apology from Kyle. I felt special :D and technically I was, my head was still spinning.
♥ Everyone managed to get three turns on the flying fox. The photo below shows the race of the leaders, and sadly, I lost to Jordan. And I look scared shitless rofl.

♥ On the bus, I fell asleep and somehow had my shoes in between Lawrence's and Kabir's seat. Lawrence obviously found my shoes comfortable :P

Labels: school events

following suit of genevieves point form
♥ monday 23-11 to wednesday 25-11 is year 9 camp! are we all psyched? yeah, most of us havent even started packing yet, gg year 9!
♥ the travel section for all the toiletries and stuff is so freaking cute. mini toothpaste, mini mouthwash, mini soap, mini cotton packs, aww.
♥ my birthday week's ended and i would just like to say again, thankyou, to everyone for making it one of the most spectacular weeks ever :) from the presents, to the atmosphere thick with enthusiasm, to the wishes and smiles, everything. i dare say, it was the perfect way to celebrate my fifteenth :)
♥ i want a deep analysis of myself from a non bias source. i know i could get anyone to look me up and down and tell me what they think of me, but i want to know what kind of person i really am. i dont know if this will make sense but i just want to know my personality traits so i can work harder at becoming a more accepting person. if only there was like, a machine that did that kinda thing. yknow, scans you and says: you are a stubborn, hypocritical bitch or you are a tolerant but stingy person or you are not human, use another machine. its okay if you dont get me, moving on rofl.
♥ and of course, im going to miss eric a lot lot lot. its not just because im not gonna see him, its the whole concept of me being however many kilometres away. hmph.
♥ and of course, all you stupid people not going to camp, im going to miss you too.

18th November: Family Celebrations



Props to my sister for taking that as I was blowing out the candles. (There's more but cbf uploading haha). It was awesome, came home and mum and sister have decorated the living room with all my presents around, so I just added to the pile of presents and cards. Mum and dad were astonished that I got so many presents. (Thanks again, guys, so so much.) Then went out to dinner at some BBQ House with built in grillers on the tables. There was another huge table there, and all of a sudden karaoke came on and they started singing, full asian shit and I'm like omfg it's my birthday, why, why, why! Rofl, awesome cake at home, i swear to god it looked better than what the photo shows, because i was just shoving in candles everywhere, trying to fit 15 candles and the numbers 1 and 5 and some tall wax stick thing LOL. and yeah :)

19th November: Heat stroke

omg it was so freaking hot. why did i go to school rofl. i was still getting birthday wishes, haha and people kept asking if i liked the guitar and card, and well, duh, of course, best thing ever guys, i still cant stress it enough :D

during lunch, while i was working at the canteen (and hiding out from the heat haha), eric texted me asking if he could come and see me, and im like, do you really wanna be mobbed :L but yeah, it was sweet, so im like come. made me wait in the heat for him, stupid eric :p then we got on the train, and it said next station macquarie fields and i got all pissed cos im not gonna freaking wait at some random station for another train in this heat! but yeah, it was the right train, cityrail was malfunctioning because of the heat :L eric stayed on till fairfield for me, how sweet, then he had to catch the train back to cabra. so basically, cabra → glenfield → fairfield → cabra just to see me. cute boy ♥

21st November: Birthday Outing to City

Invited around 18 and in the end, outing consisted of 6 people. But it was freaking awesome so those who missed out (brother alan and dai lou in particular), you suck!

Briefly what happened:

So on the train, I reckon we were being pretty loud rofl but thats not our fault, we were excited! we called simon banh to wish him happy birthday but he didnt pick up, we concluded because he was in chinese school. Grace's cute little bag with her hat in it rofl. I really liked liza's singlet and bra today too LOL, well just the back of her bra, cos it had like a nice dangly jewel thing on it, man, im not some pervert who checks out peoples bras. Leave me alone :L

first stop: capitol! first time for vanessa, grace and liza i think? took caps, it was the shizzz, especially the running around part and racing against the stupid damn timer. decorating was crazy, grace kept screaming "omg help us" and liza was just like "okay grace, me and you never doing this shit again" LOL. when the photos printed, everyones eyes were full editted by the machine, and they were fully on black, like wtf, we all looked like e.t. :(

then while me and vanessa are taking our own caps, mitchell runs in and screams "I WON THIS" and i swear to god, i nearly kicked him. so lucky. then grace full wanted the white one, but she never got it, and we were all praying too hmph! stupid mitchbitch :L



long walk to echo point so we stopped at easyway on the way, because we were all melting. mitchell, showing off his stupid hannari. then me and v went to maccas to get a soft serve and frozen coke.




^ grace was too pretty, had to take her face out


karaoke was so much fun! i took my shoes off, got on the table and started doing my thing ;) :L like genevieve said, best karaoke experience though, japanese excursion's one was also pretty hyped. me and mitch and grace sang all these korean songs, and mitchell, full pro, memorising all these korean lyrics rofl. big bang and 2ne1 ftw! then suddenly all these random jap songs came up and its like, how the heck do you skip and so we just held onto the fast forward button foreverrrrr. sang lady gaga, fountain of wayne, beyonce, brandy, fall out boy, paramore, backstreet boys and boys like girls. $5 per person per hour is pretty good. except it was so freaking hot. no air con. there was a small vent and grace kept standing under it, with one foot on the tv stand and covering the tv. grace is so funny.

then we went market city. me and genevieve got lace up canvas shoes from dangerfield. shopped around. i so badly want those leather keds from the converse store but they were $89.95 :( me and liza saw james johnston from australian idol in rubi shoes with his girlfriend! god i was starstruck, and i accidentally bumped into him, and i apologised and he's like "thats okay". yeah. i never meet famous people so even though he was just on australian idol, i got excited :L

mitchell got freaking onitsukas for $20?! wtf mitch, screw you, lucky bitch rofl. i wished my feet were bigger. but the smallest size there was a mens 8 which is a womens 10. and im a womens 8. so.. if i had sized 10 feet id be like big foot. so no.

went back to capitol. me and genevieve were crying over these stupid gold and silver hannaris:



look at them! with their cute little paws and smiles and freckles. fucking caps, make me and my friends emo :L

i wanted it so much, the gold one, cos it looked like that cat with the moving hand that ive always wanted. me and genevieve freaking hugging the machine, scared everyone away probably :L grace spent like $10 on one machine and never got anything so me and her were just sitting down on the side and being hobo. then this security guard came up, and laughed at us and nicely said, "if youre sitting there, people cant get through" and im like "oh man, we're not even allowed to sit anymore, and we're freaking hannari-less!" far out :L so badly wanted it, i was just death staring all the people that played the machine :( if one of those people did get it, i wouldve cried.



after that, went to china town! that shop with all the kpop cd's omg, me and mitchell were like having freaking orgasms over the cds and posters :L and there was this song playing, and i was too scared to ask the shopkeeper who sung it. i found it, its by super junior, no surprises there :D vanessa had to run outside cos she couldnt stand it rofl. went to morning glory, i got a cute macaroni and cheese mouse pad :D

went to park cos we had an extra 25 minutes to burn. it was awesome. except the grass was freaking itchy troi oi. and we divided up our caps, grace was like omg i look retarded in all of them rofl, and we were discussing the old old one we took in year 7. imagine looking back at this one, in two years time :P

simon banh, we called you like a freaking gazillion times, pick up, we're not sexual predators, we just wanna wish you happy birthday :L

click to view larger: looks so much better when its larger seroiusly


^ aw look at grace, so cute!

^ mitchells photography. go away mitch, youve already scored yourself a hannari and onitsukas :(



^ glasses only, sorry genevieve :p

^ i like this one best :)

^ dont ask me, i was just the photographer.





^ me intruding on their love making. i assume that is genevieves bedroom face.

on the way home, we were just bitching about all these things that annoy us, i swear, the whole carriage probably hated us and thought we were teen bimbos or something rofl.

today was freaking awesome, thankyou vanessa, genevieve, mitchell, grace and liza for coming and celebrating with me! really guys, thankyou thankyou :D

when it hurts we put in the work
to show that Im yours and that youre mine
- make love by big bang

Labels: birthday, city

(still to upload photo of the awesome cards i got and polaroid photo)


THANKYOU FOR THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER, EVERYONE. AND ONE OF THE BEST DAYS EVER IN MY FIFTEEN YEAR LIFE! I CANT THANK ANY OF YOU GUYS ENOUGH ♥

Especially Hurlstone Year 9 and my wonderful group. Words honestly cannot describe how special you made me feel today. Really. There's this pang of guilt that I haven't expressed my gratitude enough, especially compared to how much you guys did for me today. The emotions that rushed through me when everyone belted out the 'happy birthday' was extraordinary. The presents, oh gosh, the presents you guys made me feel like I was on top of the world. Thanks everyone for the guitar, its the freaking best. I was told I should thank Thai, Nate and my brother Alan in particular, but honestly, everyone who signed the card, everyone who chipped in for it, thanks a million. Really. I don't know how to express how thankful I am. Kyleen kept saying "Wendy, you're so loved" and I everything today made me feel so so so loved, thanks so much guys. Alan said dai louThommo was running around getting people to sign the card because he's not in any of my classes lol so thanks for that too! The two massive and delectable birthday cakes from Liza, Angela, Paulinna and S, the spontaneous birthday wishes, hugs and pats on the head, the smiles from everyone in year 9 and a few from other grades, the people who helped me carry my stuff: every bit of today was absolutely perfect. Except the part where Vanessa was stuck in the canteen at recess and lunch. Special mention to my group: Margaret, Vivian, Vanessa, Michelle, Yvy, Genevieve, Liza, Angela, Jacqueline, Christie, Grace, Danica for the positive and enthusiastic environment they provided me with today.

Big big big big big thankyou to Gramps E and S who came to visit and got me presents as well! Oh my gosh, I was jumping around and hugging Emerson like an idiot when I unwrapped the present, and S, has made me the target because everyone's jealous of the Polaroid! I love it to bits. Thanks S for the Michel's cake as well!

Another gigantic thankyou to Eric and my bffl Rayray Quoc Hung Trinh for coming to Cabramatta to give me my presents! The wrapping on the huge box was just too eye candy for me to rip into straight away. And Eric's teddies are too cute, and smell nice :p


Birthday celebrations concentrated in the living room :D
as visible, blue guitar from year 9! thanks so much guys ♥

Darrell Lea from Rayray, KitKat from Kabir, Lindt from Santosh

Teddies and necklace from Eric! ♥

$20 in coins from Colin :L

blue bag from jacquie! so needed one :D

Big Bang CD from Emerson! Thankyou so much, Gramps!

The Very Hungry Caterpillar Pop-up from sister, Mylynn :)

Fucking amazing Polaroid camera from S

the prettiest flowers and ballons ever from my bffl mitchbitch

lcm bar from aldrich, highlighters from chungy and lollipop as an addition from kebab

Okay, now I'm just going to recap briefly, I stress it: briefly, on what happened today. I cannot stress enough how spectacular you guys made my birthday, and how wonderful you made me feel. Please know that :) ♥

So stayed up till 12 on my birthday eve. Eric called so he was the first to wish me happy birthday and countdown with me :) Then I received a horde of messages via MSN! It was pretty cool already, I felt special, having my name on personal messages and stuff :D Then Eric texted me at exactly 2:50AM, to wish me my first officiall Happy birthday :)

Woke up, I didn't really feel that different. My mum screamed from the car HAPPY BIRTHDAY after she dropped me off and forgot to say it LOL. First present I got: KitKat from Kabir! I was sitting on the train, Liza and Vanessa made me feel extremely in the spotlight. Then, at Cabra, Mitchell enters with cute pastel pink balloons with heart patterned strings and yellow and red tigerlilly bouquet! Oh my god, thankyou so much, Mitchell, I was smiling my mouth off by then. And I was so amazed that I actually got three presents already :)

Jacqueline gave me the bag before I went into english, so so so so so sweet of her, thanks Jacq-e :P Alvin gave me that awesomely wrapped highlighter package in english. It made me feel so special, he kept going on about how small and crap it was, but honestly, it's the thought that counts. And he's been giving me Smiggle presents since Year 7, and I really really appreciate it. It's like a tradition thing in a way lol, thanks heaps Alvin!

At recess, Emerson turned up and gave me the CD! God, I was jumping up and down, all excited, I swore I would've exploded by then. In a good way. Then Thai came and told me I was arrested. So I followed him, and most of Year 9 was crowded around the opening between the math corridor onto the donut quad. it was one of the best feelings ever, to have everyone yell happy birthday, and give me the guitar. honestly. it was amazing, amazing, amazing, amazing. When everyone decided to sing Happy birthday, I was so close to crying, but I held it in! And then Yvy and Jacqueline stood really close to each other and did some dance thing and moved across, one to the left, and one to the right to reveal Liza holding a birthday cake! SO DID NOT EXPECT THAT LOL i thought they were just doing some dance. By then, I was melting. But yeah, I took a piece of the cake and gave the rest to everyone there, it was such a goooooooooooooood cake zomg, gonna buy one for everyone now :L

The huge card I got along with the four others, were simply amazing to read, and I've read the huge one labelled "FROM YEAR 9" over and over again. When I read the "FROM YEAR 9" part on the envelope, I swear, made me feel like the luckiest bitch alive for some reason, and I don't know, just the unity of year 9, wishing me happy birthday :)

At lunch, Grace, Vivian, Christie and Michelle greeted me happy birthday before going off to bowling. Then Sunny brought out the cake. And gave me the present. I read the card, and Genevieve screamt, "Oh my gosh, you have a Polaroid?" and Sunny nodded and I was thinking, stupid bitch, never told me lmao. I was unwrapping the present, saw a brown vintage box and I was like holy shit, this is awesome. Then I opened it and it was a freaking polaroid! A FREAKING POLAROID! Oh my gumdrops. A freaking polaroid. Thanks so much :) Then we took a photo with the people hanging around there, my first polaroid to signify the best birthday ever :)

After school, went Happy Cup with Mitchell to drink a whole 375ml can of soft drink due to the weariness of sport. Then went library to hide out from the heat and because we were kinda out of money, and I was carrying around heaps of stuff. Then Eric and Rayray came and Rayray pulled out the shiny box with red ribbon (the first thing I noticed, after your bright blue gum, Rayray) and yeah, 1kg of depression food. And then Eric pulled out teddy bears, aw, yeah, I was still grinning :D Then got Mitch to mind the stuff for me while he tutors those two cute little school kids, and went to the park with Catman. It was nice and cool there, hiding out from the sun under the tree. Then Eric pulled out a deep purple box, with a nice deep purple ribbon and gave it to me. And I kept shaking it, not sure whether I should open it or not and I think it got a bit irritating LOL. Sorry E, but yeah, you were the cherry on my cake today :)



THANKYOU EVERYONE SO MUCH. You guys are simply remarkable, and I mean every word.

(you were my secret birthday wish)

Labels: birthday

last day of 14

i want to wake up in a room like that.

~ mitchell told me today that he's more hyped up about my birthday than he was for his birthday! aw that made me feel so special. well he should be making me feel special, he forgot my birthday when i asked him a few weeks ago hah (i still love you mitchbitch)
~ alan kept asking me if i liked monkeys
~ and then a lot of people like holly were like 'its your birthday tomorrow!'
~ and danica gave me a big long hug :D

i am very hyped up about my birthday tomorrow! not really about the attention or presents or cake, its just plainly the fact that it is my birthday :) yeah, 15 isnt really that major. me and liza couldnt think of anything that 15 signifies on the train today, except for that we can watch m movies legally now.

stupid angela ditching me on my birthday tomorrow! i hope you suffer in the fires of the underworld.

i also recall giving a speech. something along the lines of, "oh my gosh, im going to have to settle down now! no more fooling around, i have to really accomplish something before it's too late". yeah, even though its exciting, i gotta remember im just one year closer to death. but screw that for now, its my freaking birthday tomorrow! all that counting down since 100 days has finally paid off.

ooh and my sister bought me a birthday girl badge. happy happy happy happy chappy i am :D

edit 6:39 take back everything you ever said

Labels: birthday

dear _ you are so flirtatious, its funny. please do not use the yawn and stretch move when you go to watch 2012 tomorrow. girls arent interested. good boy. "wat u see is wat u get" i beg to differ. other than that, you're alright :)

i cant believe we couldnt use the pool for pe today because of the stupid little kiddies swimming carnival. hmph. why use our pool, rent your own damn pool. you little kiddies ruined my day! oh well. we saw that really pretty dog run around school, and i was like omg did halley morph! but it wasnt. it was like, the plumbers dog.

Labels: dedication

you know what my mum said to me today?

"You do realise that there's going to be a few boys and girls in your grade that will get married in the future."

which has brought me to think: who's going to be high school sweethearts in our grade? what do you guys think, because seriously i had fun contemplating and match making :L and dont say me and vanessa, because that's a given (a)

english tutoring was the usual. me and mitchell talking about kpop, falling asleep on each other and mitchell forgetting my birthday. mitchum, dear, dont break my heart on wednesday! and then our teacher told us about kickyoutube.com haha after tutor, eric showed me photos of his basketball jersey, and we both agree it's tb. and then:

(11:53 AM) Eric: lol true, but which is better, deceptabots or wildcats?
(11:54 AM) Eric: you should see it with the shorts, it's fully tb
(11:55 AM) wt with no v: OMG WHATS WRONG WITH YOU, DECEPTABOTS FTW

-laughs at eric- always go with the bots, woman.

dear _ why is it that girls fall so hard for you, and you let them fall? i mean, continuing falling, while you just move on with your life acting like nothing's ever happened? is it really that hard to conversate? is it really that hard to even pretend? if you're going to turn your back, at least provide a reason, an explanation. why do you put people through this. and i know you, i know you wouldnt do this without some sort of reasonable justification. but, please? it may be easier for you to not speak a word, but it's harder to not hear a thing.

(every atom of me misses him)

Labels: dedication, everyday

that you hang up, no you hang up kind of love

i couldnt type anything on this blog before because i thought vanessa was made at me and that shook me tremendously. enough for me to question, is shook a word?

went liverpool with margaret today! massive sale at ice, and even though i generally do not shop at ice, who can resist a 50% off all stock? seriously, it was 50% off, no fine print! walked around a while before i found two dresses i fell in love with. a black and a blue one. ended up getting the blue one. margaret got three dresses, spree much? then she didnt have enough money for lunch so i let her borrow, it was actually quite cute :L bought a shirt from sportsgirl as well, its my new favourite :)

taeyang's wedding dress song is so sad. and the way that guy proposed in the video is stupid. guys, if youre gonna ask a girl out or propose to her, dont do it like that please :L otherwise, i love this video :)

Labels: dedication, everyday

music bad girl by b2st
feeling unwanted and congested

happy birthday rakshitha!

kris kringle in my group today was major fail, yet so hilarious to watch at the same time rofl. poor vivian, had to write out copies of names like a million times. we had to draw names out of genevieve's cat hat at least five times due to people being totally unhappy with the name they got, people telling or people swapping. presents due on 10th december!

year assembly today was actually enjoyable. how embarrassing, i stuffed up the national anthem, not my fault i had to do it on the spot, please dont laugh at me. our new years advisors are set to be entertaining, ive never really talked to miss sayed properly, but people say shes cool so ill believe that judgement for now. looking forward to mr geerling being all serious and supportive when we come to him for help though :p speech for creating connections, i think i spoke rather fast or something yeah? haha list of leaders up on year 10 noticeboard upstairs. and i got an award for english, yay. congratulations to all those who are going presentation night, esp you margaret, nerdass for maths :p

anyway, yesterday was grace's party yeah? well technically, it was thang's, michael's and andrew's. i really can't be bothered to blog about it because i'm sick from it rofl, but me and vanessa had like a massive hangover today. from too much singstar, of course. it was fun, we all love your brothers' parties, grace, theyre so awesome, invite us next year :d

warning: next section of this blog is rather reflective and i dare say, deep

so genevieves started a trend of reflecting back on this year. and im going to follow because two thousand and nine has changed me, in more ways than one.

firstly, i sorted out my life. i figured out what i wanted, what i didnt want, what i needed and who i needed. i sieved through my social environmental and left the people who were bringing me down. i know ive written about this before, but my small group of thirteen friends along with my bffls (and brother haha) who are spreaded out everywhere, are who make me happy.

my music taste has further widened. my ipod has always seen rnb and emo clashing in the same library, but this year meant more kpop, jpop and alternative. go big bang, super junior, b2st in particular.

i got to know someone in particular who came into my life at the perfect time, and changed it dramatically for the better. hes persevered and gone through so much with me in such a small amount of time, it really amazes me. you know who you are and i hope things get better for us soon.

my birthday made me realise a lot. ive written about this too many times but not only does it rank amongst the top five or so best days in my life, it made me change my whole perspective on birthdays and birthday presents. at least half of the grade chipped in for my guitar. why? simply because it was my birthday, and they wanted me to be happy. and that feeling that i got when i saw the guitar, and when the happy birthday was sung, can not compare to anything. it made me happy. now, i see birthdays as more than just an anniversary, i see it as an opportunity for me to put a smile on someones face, whether it be through a physical object presented under gift wrap and secured with a ribbon, or by repeatedly telling them happy birthday twenty three thousand times until they tell me to shut up. (im pretty sure alvin wasnt happy by the time his birthday ended rofl). recently, giving santosh and alvin their birthday presents made them happy, which made me happy. i want people to feel what they made me feel on my birthday.

i was motivated to do well and study hard in my exams, more than ever. the effort i put into science to compensate for the 42% in my half yearlies even surprised myself, resulting in a 82%, my best science mark i think :)

thats all for now, you'll probably be seeing a part two soon.

Labels: creating connections, dedication

quick update: happy birthday santosh! ♥ thanks for being an awesome japanese buddy, this year have made me much closer to you and i love more than just your eyelashes now, your sense of humour and how you care about my pms rofl. enjoy india, boy :)

OWL CITY is amazing. I'm addicted to the track Fireflies, thanks Nicholas for suggesting Vanilla Twilight! Gosh, I haven't exchanged music with that boy in ages, the only person I know so far who's music interest is as diverse and similar to mine! p.s. your haircuts fine, dont know why everyones making a fuss. honestly.

stayed up till 2 with rayray quoc hung yesterday. remember, no drinking or i disown you.

updated my lastfm, link's in the about section. camp blog below is still in progress if anyone's bothering to read! currently compiling christmas wish list :D i feel somewhat selfish but hey, it's christmas, tis the season for giving! hahaha. yeah i am selfish.

the carlos,
the concussion,
the cramp:
the camp
Thanks Rakshitha, Grace and various other Facebook people I stole these from :D



23-11-09 First Day, Alvin Chung's Birthday
Group 6: Rafting, Beach Games
♥ double decker bus, baby! the ride was fairly short and the first thing we did when we got there was have lunch. the whole routine at collaroy was basically activity, eat, activity, eat, activity, eat, so many afternoon/morning teas and stuff rofl. the cordial was absolutely horrendous.
♥ cabin number 4! first thing vanessa did was pull down her mattress, so i decided to join her. if we werent gonna have a sleepover, might as well at camp. it was fun. things heated up ;) joking.
♥ me and vivian were at first annoyed to find out we had both of the beach activities on the first day! turns out it was to our advantage, as it was raining the next day haha.
♥ group 6 is the freaking sex, no questions asked. as a leader on the lookout for potential co-leaders next year, i was seriously amazed at how encouraging and cooperative everybody was. the atmosphere provided by everyones enthusiasm really brightened up camp for me. you guys are the best group ever!
♥ raft building turned out better than i thought, except the fact that no one could jump in for a swim except for the two raft riders. our team worked really well together, i reckon. the other team, group 7, who we had to compete against, their raft just fell apart in the pool, so basically their rider was just swimming with poles. at least our raft stayed together! until jordan kerr did a massive jump and all the barrels popped out :L gg.
♥ beach games, such a bludge, didnt do anything. there was somewhat a weak attempt at a game of soccer, where mr kearney was our goalie. there was a mini mini goal, so mr kearney decided we should use cones instead. so i saw that as an opportunity to pick up the goal and run around with it, protecting myself. and everytime the ball got close to me but i didnt want to get hit, id chuck the goal onto it and everyone would be like, where the heck did that come from :L. got bored, so vivian decided to 'amputate' my leg. some people actually believed it i think. then we decided we needed a photo, so we called rak over and she's just like "are you serious" :L





♥ after that was of course dinner, then back to cabins for an hour of free time. what did my cabin do during this time? we figured out a shower timetable, cos we nerds like that. we named our two ensuites, #1 and #2, the name speaks for itself haha, and there were all these terms and conditions like, "the last person to shower has to wipe up the floor." and miss milner walked in later and saw it and was full astonished rofl.
♥ the night hike was so much fun, now that i think about it, and i dont know why i complained. the walk there involved me and mitchell singing a lot of kpop songs out loud, and michelle complaining about being cold and listening and judging our vocal abilities. got there, to the highest point, and looked around. it was loverrrrrly, the lights plastered and spreaded out against the dark night sky. it was moments like that that made me miss people a whole lot more. sat there on the highest point for a bit, before lawrence came and joined me and we decided to swap jumpers. so he wore my cardigan for the rest of the way back. he looked better in it than i did. lawrences jumper was so warm.
♥ "wendys boobs always has reception" margaret. wow i do have special powers. teachers were so easy this camp. which resulted in most of us staying up late on phones, ipods or whatever haha.

24-11-09 Dragon Tails and Concussion
Group 6: giant swing, high ropes, rock climbing, vertical challenge
♥ issy decides to go on giant swing first, and troi oi, she terrified the rest of the group rofl. im such a bad leader, honestly, instead of setting a good example, i was all shaky as i approached the ladder, and as i was getting pulled up, i was covering my face, mildly screaming. then, when it was my turn to pull the rope, i had to yank it three and a half times before i fell. the first three times i pulled it, i didnt drop, and yet i was already screaming :L everybody must have found that extremely hilarious.
♥ i dont know why i got so worked up about high ropes. as soon as i clipped to go down the final ladder, i was like, aw cant believe its over, why didnt i enjoy it instead of breaking down. i wasnt nervous about it at all, until i had to finish the first course, walking along the single rope with just another rope to hold on to. far out, should've just ran across it, cos yknow, if you fall, nothing happens, you just kinda hang there, or fly around or whatever :L
♥ rock climbing, troi oi, so much struggling, quite a few people couldnt even get past the net onto the rock climbing board, and i was one of them. i really don't trust that stupid belay poles to keep me up, honestly, looks so weak. oh well, group 6 was really encouraging and everytime someone rang the bell we'd full cheer and everything, it was really nice :D

♥ vertical challenge! not visible in the example photo up there, but there was a rope ladder and a string, before reaching the rock climbing board. omg had to get into groups of 3, so veronica vivian and i. we let veronica go first cos she's fast as. then it was my turn. i nearly gave up at the freaking start of the board, but no, had to keep going (due to a certain kind of motivation) and yeah, thankyou so much to my group and veronica's encouragement as she was standing on the board. wouldnt have made it without you guys. but next time, please, more specific instructions instead of yelling at the top of your lungs the green one, the bloody green one :P kidding, i love you guys. in the last few metres, my belay team just pulled me up rofl. and same for vivian.

the only loser posing in that photo, would be me
♥ games night. this is where i almost died. how exciting. yeah, so we were playing the dragon's tail game, the whole grade sits in a circle, and ten people at a time gets a black cloth, shoves it in their pocket with it hanging out, runs around, trying to pull out the other 9 people's cloths. kinda like oztag. i wasnt too keen on being watched by the rest of the grade as i run around and fail, so i didnt volunteer. until i got one thrown at me, for an "all girls round", and this was where my troubles began! it was fun, running around, enjoying it, the adrenaline i guess, me and grace were like full on, and i remember thinking "shit man, she's tank, why mess with her for" rofl. something something happened, and it was only me and veronica left in the game, and we fell over a couple of times, but yeah, i won! oh well, didnt matter, group 6 co leaders and leaders ftw haha. then after a few more rounds, there was an all champions round, so i had to get up, and all my friends were being rly nice, encouraging me so im like what the hey. yeah, it was fun, i eliminated around 3-4 people, the last being rohan where there was this massive roar from the rest of the grade, haha, it was uplifting. then somehow it ended up only being me and kyle! omg scary shit man. so we were just like, facing each other, jumping around and whatnot, then suddenly im on the floor and my head's numb. and vanessa rushes over, and the grade's boo-ing kyle, aw. and this is where i lost my memory and not sure what happens till im back in the auditorium, lying on the stage. head's still numb and tingling, miss milner asks me if i remember anything, i say no, so she takes me to medical clinic. mr kearney came along, yay, he was fun to talk to haha. doctor says i was fine, just concussion. went back. miss milner bought me rapid panadol. miss sayed saved me a cookie from supper. entered my cabin, michelle was crying cos she was worried about me how cute :P then yeah, head killed so quickly got into bed. at school, the grade and the teachers kept asking if im okay, even teachers who werent there. all the guys are like, "wendy ran into a brick wall" and someone was like "no, a brick wall ran into wendy", brick wall being kyle rofl. hilarious, but yeah, he came up to me on wednesday and apologised, it was an accident anyways :)
♥ i heard jacqueline's cabin had wedding dress by taeyang on repeat. well mine, we had bad girl by b2st on repeat, all of us crowding around and going crazy when aj winks in the video! farrrr outtttttt, three days of b2st omg, well spent, girls, well spent :p

25-11-09 Home Time
Group 6: Flying fox, challenge
♥ Not much happened today so really briefly, thankyou to everyone who checked up on me! I even got a really nice apology from Kyle. I felt special :D and technically I was, my head was still spinning.
♥ Everyone managed to get three turns on the flying fox. The photo below shows the race of the leaders, and sadly, I lost to Jordan. And I look scared shitless rofl.

♥ On the bus, I fell asleep and somehow had my shoes in between Lawrence's and Kabir's seat. Lawrence obviously found my shoes comfortable :P

Labels: school events

following suit of genevieves point form
♥ monday 23-11 to wednesday 25-11 is year 9 camp! are we all psyched? yeah, most of us havent even started packing yet, gg year 9!
♥ the travel section for all the toiletries and stuff is so freaking cute. mini toothpaste, mini mouthwash, mini soap, mini cotton packs, aww.
♥ my birthday week's ended and i would just like to say again, thankyou, to everyone for making it one of the most spectacular weeks ever :) from the presents, to the atmosphere thick with enthusiasm, to the wishes and smiles, everything. i dare say, it was the perfect way to celebrate my fifteenth :)
♥ i want a deep analysis of myself from a non bias source. i know i could get anyone to look me up and down and tell me what they think of me, but i want to know what kind of person i really am. i dont know if this will make sense but i just want to know my personality traits so i can work harder at becoming a more accepting person. if only there was like, a machine that did that kinda thing. yknow, scans you and says: you are a stubborn, hypocritical bitch or you are a tolerant but stingy person or you are not human, use another machine. its okay if you dont get me, moving on rofl.
♥ and of course, im going to miss eric a lot lot lot. its not just because im not gonna see him, its the whole concept of me being however many kilometres away. hmph.
♥ and of course, all you stupid people not going to camp, im going to miss you too.

18th November: Family Celebrations



Props to my sister for taking that as I was blowing out the candles. (There's more but cbf uploading haha). It was awesome, came home and mum and sister have decorated the living room with all my presents around, so I just added to the pile of presents and cards. Mum and dad were astonished that I got so many presents. (Thanks again, guys, so so much.) Then went out to dinner at some BBQ House with built in grillers on the tables. There was another huge table there, and all of a sudden karaoke came on and they started singing, full asian shit and I'm like omfg it's my birthday, why, why, why! Rofl, awesome cake at home, i swear to god it looked better than what the photo shows, because i was just shoving in candles everywhere, trying to fit 15 candles and the numbers 1 and 5 and some tall wax stick thing LOL. and yeah :)

19th November: Heat stroke

omg it was so freaking hot. why did i go to school rofl. i was still getting birthday wishes, haha and people kept asking if i liked the guitar and card, and well, duh, of course, best thing ever guys, i still cant stress it enough :D

during lunch, while i was working at the canteen (and hiding out from the heat haha), eric texted me asking if he could come and see me, and im like, do you really wanna be mobbed :L but yeah, it was sweet, so im like come. made me wait in the heat for him, stupid eric :p then we got on the train, and it said next station macquarie fields and i got all pissed cos im not gonna freaking wait at some random station for another train in this heat! but yeah, it was the right train, cityrail was malfunctioning because of the heat :L eric stayed on till fairfield for me, how sweet, then he had to catch the train back to cabra. so basically, cabra → glenfield → fairfield → cabra just to see me. cute boy ♥

21st November: Birthday Outing to City

Invited around 18 and in the end, outing consisted of 6 people. But it was freaking awesome so those who missed out (brother alan and dai lou in particular), you suck!

Briefly what happened:

So on the train, I reckon we were being pretty loud rofl but thats not our fault, we were excited! we called simon banh to wish him happy birthday but he didnt pick up, we concluded because he was in chinese school. Grace's cute little bag with her hat in it rofl. I really liked liza's singlet and bra today too LOL, well just the back of her bra, cos it had like a nice dangly jewel thing on it, man, im not some pervert who checks out peoples bras. Leave me alone :L

first stop: capitol! first time for vanessa, grace and liza i think? took caps, it was the shizzz, especially the running around part and racing against the stupid damn timer. decorating was crazy, grace kept screaming "omg help us" and liza was just like "okay grace, me and you never doing this shit again" LOL. when the photos printed, everyones eyes were full editted by the machine, and they were fully on black, like wtf, we all looked like e.t. :(

then while me and vanessa are taking our own caps, mitchell runs in and screams "I WON THIS" and i swear to god, i nearly kicked him. so lucky. then grace full wanted the white one, but she never got it, and we were all praying too hmph! stupid mitchbitch :L



long walk to echo point so we stopped at easyway on the way, because we were all melting. mitchell, showing off his stupid hannari. then me and v went to maccas to get a soft serve and frozen coke.




^ grace was too pretty, had to take her face out


karaoke was so much fun! i took my shoes off, got on the table and started doing my thing ;) :L like genevieve said, best karaoke experience though, japanese excursion's one was also pretty hyped. me and mitch and grace sang all these korean songs, and mitchell, full pro, memorising all these korean lyrics rofl. big bang and 2ne1 ftw! then suddenly all these random jap songs came up and its like, how the heck do you skip and so we just held onto the fast forward button foreverrrrr. sang lady gaga, fountain of wayne, beyonce, brandy, fall out boy, paramore, backstreet boys and boys like girls. $5 per person per hour is pretty good. except it was so freaking hot. no air con. there was a small vent and grace kept standing under it, with one foot on the tv stand and covering the tv. grace is so funny.

then we went market city. me and genevieve got lace up canvas shoes from dangerfield. shopped around. i so badly want those leather keds from the converse store but they were $89.95 :( me and liza saw james johnston from australian idol in rubi shoes with his girlfriend! god i was starstruck, and i accidentally bumped into him, and i apologised and he's like "thats okay". yeah. i never meet famous people so even though he was just on australian idol, i got excited :L

mitchell got freaking onitsukas for $20?! wtf mitch, screw you, lucky bitch rofl. i wished my feet were bigger. but the smallest size there was a mens 8 which is a womens 10. and im a womens 8. so.. if i had sized 10 feet id be like big foot. so no.

went back to capitol. me and genevieve were crying over these stupid gold and silver hannaris:



look at them! with their cute little paws and smiles and freckles. fucking caps, make me and my friends emo :L

i wanted it so much, the gold one, cos it looked like that cat with the moving hand that ive always wanted. me and genevieve freaking hugging the machine, scared everyone away probably :L grace spent like $10 on one machine and never got anything so me and her were just sitting down on the side and being hobo. then this security guard came up, and laughed at us and nicely said, "if youre sitting there, people cant get through" and im like "oh man, we're not even allowed to sit anymore, and we're freaking hannari-less!" far out :L so badly wanted it, i was just death staring all the people that played the machine :( if one of those people did get it, i wouldve cried.



after that, went to china town! that shop with all the kpop cd's omg, me and mitchell were like having freaking orgasms over the cds and posters :L and there was this song playing, and i was too scared to ask the shopkeeper who sung it. i found it, its by super junior, no surprises there :D vanessa had to run outside cos she couldnt stand it rofl. went to morning glory, i got a cute macaroni and cheese mouse pad :D

went to park cos we had an extra 25 minutes to burn. it was awesome. except the grass was freaking itchy troi oi. and we divided up our caps, grace was like omg i look retarded in all of them rofl, and we were discussing the old old one we took in year 7. imagine looking back at this one, in two years time :P

simon banh, we called you like a freaking gazillion times, pick up, we're not sexual predators, we just wanna wish you happy birthday :L

click to view larger: looks so much better when its larger seroiusly


^ aw look at grace, so cute!

^ mitchells photography. go away mitch, youve already scored yourself a hannari and onitsukas :(



^ glasses only, sorry genevieve :p

^ i like this one best :)

^ dont ask me, i was just the photographer.





^ me intruding on their love making. i assume that is genevieves bedroom face.

on the way home, we were just bitching about all these things that annoy us, i swear, the whole carriage probably hated us and thought we were teen bimbos or something rofl.

today was freaking awesome, thankyou vanessa, genevieve, mitchell, grace and liza for coming and celebrating with me! really guys, thankyou thankyou :D

when it hurts we put in the work
to show that Im yours and that youre mine
- make love by big bang

Labels: birthday, city

(still to upload photo of the awesome cards i got and polaroid photo)


THANKYOU FOR THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER, EVERYONE. AND ONE OF THE BEST DAYS EVER IN MY FIFTEEN YEAR LIFE! I CANT THANK ANY OF YOU GUYS ENOUGH ♥

Especially Hurlstone Year 9 and my wonderful group. Words honestly cannot describe how special you made me feel today. Really. There's this pang of guilt that I haven't expressed my gratitude enough, especially compared to how much you guys did for me today. The emotions that rushed through me when everyone belted out the 'happy birthday' was extraordinary. The presents, oh gosh, the presents you guys made me feel like I was on top of the world. Thanks everyone for the guitar, its the freaking best. I was told I should thank Thai, Nate and my brother Alan in particular, but honestly, everyone who signed the card, everyone who chipped in for it, thanks a million. Really. I don't know how to express how thankful I am. Kyleen kept saying "Wendy, you're so loved" and I everything today made me feel so so so loved, thanks so much guys. Alan said dai louThommo was running around getting people to sign the card because he's not in any of my classes lol so thanks for that too! The two massive and delectable birthday cakes from Liza, Angela, Paulinna and S, the spontaneous birthday wishes, hugs and pats on the head, the smiles from everyone in year 9 and a few from other grades, the people who helped me carry my stuff: every bit of today was absolutely perfect. Except the part where Vanessa was stuck in the canteen at recess and lunch. Special mention to my group: Margaret, Vivian, Vanessa, Michelle, Yvy, Genevieve, Liza, Angela, Jacqueline, Christie, Grace, Danica for the positive and enthusiastic environment they provided me with today.

Big big big big big thankyou to Gramps E and S who came to visit and got me presents as well! Oh my gosh, I was jumping around and hugging Emerson like an idiot when I unwrapped the present, and S, has made me the target because everyone's jealous of the Polaroid! I love it to bits. Thanks S for the Michel's cake as well!

Another gigantic thankyou to Eric and my bffl Rayray Quoc Hung Trinh for coming to Cabramatta to give me my presents! The wrapping on the huge box was just too eye candy for me to rip into straight away. And Eric's teddies are too cute, and smell nice :p


Birthday celebrations concentrated in the living room :D
as visible, blue guitar from year 9! thanks so much guys ♥

Darrell Lea from Rayray, KitKat from Kabir, Lindt from Santosh

Teddies and necklace from Eric! ♥

$20 in coins from Colin :L

blue bag from jacquie! so needed one :D

Big Bang CD from Emerson! Thankyou so much, Gramps!

The Very Hungry Caterpillar Pop-up from sister, Mylynn :)

Fucking amazing Polaroid camera from S

the prettiest flowers and ballons ever from my bffl mitchbitch

lcm bar from aldrich, highlighters from chungy and lollipop as an addition from kebab

Okay, now I'm just going to recap briefly, I stress it: briefly, on what happened today. I cannot stress enough how spectacular you guys made my birthday, and how wonderful you made me feel. Please know that :) ♥

So stayed up till 12 on my birthday eve. Eric called so he was the first to wish me happy birthday and countdown with me :) Then I received a horde of messages via MSN! It was pretty cool already, I felt special, having my name on personal messages and stuff :D Then Eric texted me at exactly 2:50AM, to wish me my first officiall Happy birthday :)

Woke up, I didn't really feel that different. My mum screamed from the car HAPPY BIRTHDAY after she dropped me off and forgot to say it LOL. First present I got: KitKat from Kabir! I was sitting on the train, Liza and Vanessa made me feel extremely in the spotlight. Then, at Cabra, Mitchell enters with cute pastel pink balloons with heart patterned strings and yellow and red tigerlilly bouquet! Oh my god, thankyou so much, Mitchell, I was smiling my mouth off by then. And I was so amazed that I actually got three presents already :)

Jacqueline gave me the bag before I went into english, so so so so so sweet of her, thanks Jacq-e :P Alvin gave me that awesomely wrapped highlighter package in english. It made me feel so special, he kept going on about how small and crap it was, but honestly, it's the thought that counts. And he's been giving me Smiggle presents since Year 7, and I really really appreciate it. It's like a tradition thing in a way lol, thanks heaps Alvin!

At recess, Emerson turned up and gave me the CD! God, I was jumping up and down, all excited, I swore I would've exploded by then. In a good way. Then Thai came and told me I was arrested. So I followed him, and most of Year 9 was crowded around the opening between the math corridor onto the donut quad. it was one of the best feelings ever, to have everyone yell happy birthday, and give me the guitar. honestly. it was amazing, amazing, amazing, amazing. When everyone decided to sing Happy birthday, I was so close to crying, but I held it in! And then Yvy and Jacqueline stood really close to each other and did some dance thing and moved across, one to the left, and one to the right to reveal Liza holding a birthday cake! SO DID NOT EXPECT THAT LOL i thought they were just doing some dance. By then, I was melting. But yeah, I took a piece of the cake and gave the rest to everyone there, it was such a goooooooooooooood cake zomg, gonna buy one for everyone now :L

The huge card I got along with the four others, were simply amazing to read, and I've read the huge one labelled "FROM YEAR 9" over and over again. When I read the "FROM YEAR 9" part on the envelope, I swear, made me feel like the luckiest bitch alive for some reason, and I don't know, just the unity of year 9, wishing me happy birthday :)

At lunch, Grace, Vivian, Christie and Michelle greeted me happy birthday before going off to bowling. Then Sunny brought out the cake. And gave me the present. I read the card, and Genevieve screamt, "Oh my gosh, you have a Polaroid?" and Sunny nodded and I was thinking, stupid bitch, never told me lmao. I was unwrapping the present, saw a brown vintage box and I was like holy shit, this is awesome. Then I opened it and it was a freaking polaroid! A FREAKING POLAROID! Oh my gumdrops. A freaking polaroid. Thanks so much :) Then we took a photo with the people hanging around there, my first polaroid to signify the best birthday ever :)

After school, went Happy Cup with Mitchell to drink a whole 375ml can of soft drink due to the weariness of sport. Then went library to hide out from the heat and because we were kinda out of money, and I was carrying around heaps of stuff. Then Eric and Rayray came and Rayray pulled out the shiny box with red ribbon (the first thing I noticed, after your bright blue gum, Rayray) and yeah, 1kg of depression food. And then Eric pulled out teddy bears, aw, yeah, I was still grinning :D Then got Mitch to mind the stuff for me while he tutors those two cute little school kids, and went to the park with Catman. It was nice and cool there, hiding out from the sun under the tree. Then Eric pulled out a deep purple box, with a nice deep purple ribbon and gave it to me. And I kept shaking it, not sure whether I should open it or not and I think it got a bit irritating LOL. Sorry E, but yeah, you were the cherry on my cake today :)



THANKYOU EVERYONE SO MUCH. You guys are simply remarkable, and I mean every word.

(you were my secret birthday wish)

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last day of 14

i want to wake up in a room like that.

~ mitchell told me today that he's more hyped up about my birthday than he was for his birthday! aw that made me feel so special. well he should be making me feel special, he forgot my birthday when i asked him a few weeks ago hah (i still love you mitchbitch)
~ alan kept asking me if i liked monkeys
~ and then a lot of people like holly were like 'its your birthday tomorrow!'
~ and danica gave me a big long hug :D

i am very hyped up about my birthday tomorrow! not really about the attention or presents or cake, its just plainly the fact that it is my birthday :) yeah, 15 isnt really that major. me and liza couldnt think of anything that 15 signifies on the train today, except for that we can watch m movies legally now.

stupid angela ditching me on my birthday tomorrow! i hope you suffer in the fires of the underworld.

i also recall giving a speech. something along the lines of, "oh my gosh, im going to have to settle down now! no more fooling around, i have to really accomplish something before it's too late". yeah, even though its exciting, i gotta remember im just one year closer to death. but screw that for now, its my freaking birthday tomorrow! all that counting down since 100 days has finally paid off.

ooh and my sister bought me a birthday girl badge. happy happy happy happy chappy i am :D

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dear _ you are so flirtatious, its funny. please do not use the yawn and stretch move when you go to watch 2012 tomorrow. girls arent interested. good boy. "wat u see is wat u get" i beg to differ. other than that, you're alright :)

i cant believe we couldnt use the pool for pe today because of the stupid little kiddies swimming carnival. hmph. why use our pool, rent your own damn pool. you little kiddies ruined my day! oh well. we saw that really pretty dog run around school, and i was like omg did halley morph! but it wasnt. it was like, the plumbers dog.

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you know what my mum said to me today?

"You do realise that there's going to be a few boys and girls in your grade that will get married in the future."

which has brought me to think: who's going to be high school sweethearts in our grade? what do you guys think, because seriously i had fun contemplating and match making :L and dont say me and vanessa, because that's a given (a)

english tutoring was the usual. me and mitchell talking about kpop, falling asleep on each other and mitchell forgetting my birthday. mitchum, dear, dont break my heart on wednesday! and then our teacher told us about kickyoutube.com haha after tutor, eric showed me photos of his basketball jersey, and we both agree it's tb. and then:

(11:53 AM) Eric: lol true, but which is better, deceptabots or wildcats?
(11:54 AM) Eric: you should see it with the shorts, it's fully tb
(11:55 AM) wt with no v: OMG WHATS WRONG WITH YOU, DECEPTABOTS FTW

-laughs at eric- always go with the bots, woman.

dear _ why is it that girls fall so hard for you, and you let them fall? i mean, continuing falling, while you just move on with your life acting like nothing's ever happened? is it really that hard to conversate? is it really that hard to even pretend? if you're going to turn your back, at least provide a reason, an explanation. why do you put people through this. and i know you, i know you wouldnt do this without some sort of reasonable justification. but, please? it may be easier for you to not speak a word, but it's harder to not hear a thing.

(every atom of me misses him)

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that you hang up, no you hang up kind of love

i couldnt type anything on this blog before because i thought vanessa was made at me and that shook me tremendously. enough for me to question, is shook a word?

went liverpool with margaret today! massive sale at ice, and even though i generally do not shop at ice, who can resist a 50% off all stock? seriously, it was 50% off, no fine print! walked around a while before i found two dresses i fell in love with. a black and a blue one. ended up getting the blue one. margaret got three dresses, spree much? then she didnt have enough money for lunch so i let her borrow, it was actually quite cute :L bought a shirt from sportsgirl as well, its my new favourite :)

taeyang's wedding dress song is so sad. and the way that guy proposed in the video is stupid. guys, if youre gonna ask a girl out or propose to her, dont do it like that please :L otherwise, i love this video :)

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