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things have been changing and happening very rapidly lately! to say i am overwhelmed and exhausted would be an understatement. there has been so much going on, too many things i've been involved in! such terrifyingly busy days but oh, it has been so worth every cell in my body working hard to keep me conscious through it all.

this weekend has been full of wonderful things that have created spectacular memories. friday meant staying at school until 9pm, appreciating and enjoying hurlstone's talent. had so much fun with the src execs on stage! thankyou to thai and alvin who did not complain once about transposing the song about a couple gazillion times to suit my voice. i practised too much from 3pm-7pm that my voice started to die and hence, not being able to hit the extremely high notes of the song! the support from everyone who came and cheered and screamed and yelled out my name and clapped at certain parts of the song... *yay* you guys seriously had me buzzing all the way home even though by the time i got home, i could not even move a muscle. i have not felt that physically drained in a while!

today was country fair which demanded more performances from my already strained voice. and once again, my friends came to support me. unfreakingbelievable. i want to apologise for putting you guys through my performances...i had fun singing 'kelsey' and 'so much love' but maybe on the receiving end, it wasn't too great. the support from everyone is incredible. i really really really really really really strongly really really like you guys. bordering line love. tehehehe. then my learned colleague, mr. avi kumar, agreed to help me finish my closing address. best way to spend a saturday day out at hahs's country fair, eh? chilled. on the hill-ed? yup. i'm a poet and i know it.

amazing race organised by the lovely genevieve in was so much fun! huffing and puffing around hurlstone to the many puzzled looks from visitors to search for clues was fuuuuun! thanks gen for putting so much effort into it! oh, and of course, my team won ;) thanks christie, marge and michelle for being such great budz. we took turns running each leg, christie said, and i quote, "i'm going to have a heart attack soon!" we are so unfit. hehehe.

nicholas' and mitchell's birthday had a good turn out! had so much fun, so many people were there. the amount of hugs i received and gave out today seriously contributed to the happiness i am still feeling right now. just so great to eat with my group then mingle with everyone else in the grade!

my life seems to be taking a new direction right about now. my outlook has completely changed and the motivation is starting to seep back into my system again. the regerets and lamentations still exist but no longer constitute my daily existence or frame my mentality. i would have never believed it but those words of comfort that only served as temporary soothers a few months ago are now coming true.

the amazing powers that all those around me possessed used to try and bring me back to normal were unbelievable. there is nothing that i can do or say to express how thankful i am to have friends like you. you know who you are, each and every. you know it. you may not have seen me at the worst point in that whole predicament, but you definitely had a taste of it. you had a taste of it, didn't like it, and worked hard to help fix me.

to my special group: my 16 lovelies. the empathy exhibited, hugs offered, tissues given, credit wasted, phone calls made, sleepovers held, beds offered, food given and comfort in all forms will never be forgotten by me. you guys nurtured me to look around at the many pieces of myself that i had scattered everywhere and to pick them up and put myself back together. you guys rebuilt the tracks for my train to run through once again. who knows what i'd be like right now without you. i'm not just repeating those cliches, i mean it with all my heart, the heart you guys pieced back together. i am ever so grateful. (photos from lisathegay hehe)












and thats why i smile. it's been a while since every day and everything has felt this right.

the last, the final
tell me you are listening
that you are
listening
tell me the truth.
if you keep it inside
there will never be another
time, time is gone.
distance is hitting.
so tell me that you are
listening
you dont remember
but you havent forgotten
reach out and tell me
and i will be
listening
because you were the one that let go
but you taught me to never say no, so
every single thing
i will listen
i will accept
every little thing we'll lose
close up smiles, park benches, 4am and awake

but you taught me to never say no
how come you were the one that let go, so

every little thing we'll lose
the mornings, dreams, breaths we'll make
every thing, you are at lost
because i have found, but you wont take

felt like an actual chemist in chemistry. had around 25 dropper bottles on our lab desk, ready to mix the cations with the anions and watch them form pwetty colours. everything was going well, i even started to understand and recognise the chemical formulas for each of the solutions. until. suddenly. my right hand gets all red and spotty! and itchy. cant forget itchy. then my nose got itchy and i couldnt scratch it because i didnt want to transfer the disease from my hand onto my nose. then i remembered i had my left hand so that was easily fixed. after sticking it out for about 15 minutes like a real man, i told mr geerling incase one of the chemicals had mixed with my skin and an explosion was imminent.

"sir, my hand's all red!"
"so?"
"it's weird, sir!"
"does it hurt?"
"no, but it's itchy."
"run it under water."
"that's all?"
"yeah. what do you want?"

where are his motherly instincts when i need them? where is this apparent duty of care that teachers have? huh? huh? goodness knows what could have happened in the opposite corner to me where lisa was mixing all our ionic solutions together. lead, carbonate, sodium, lead, silver, potassium, calcium and dare i say, more. did geerling notice? NO. in one test tube, she cooked up some sort of yellow/green/black/purple colour. snazzy.

today was a good day otherwise. recesses and lunches were well spent in the company of my lovely girlies. three out of the six periods saw us having subs and there was no offline because math teacher was away but more importantly will be no offline tomorrow morning either! huzzaaaaaah! hung out with my mock trial mates in legal, yo yo yo and bludged. music made me laugh too hard with mike doing great imitations of timpanis and nikkida and anna figuring out that our music teacher looks like chandler. heh.

my adoration for midi/maxi skirts have risen to new heights! ever since trying on some during my shopping adventures a month or so ago, the desire to acquire one has been beating against my skull. today, vanessa told me about her skirt purchase over the weekend-- jealous. wearing lisa lai's looooooong mesh skirt on saturday night made me feel like a pixie. no longer is the fear of tripping over or fraying the hems in my sight: their beauty and comfortability overrides all. all the babies below are from asos but should be mine. in approximate order of want. could you just imagine twirling in one of them?!?! ah! just looking at them brings tears to my eyes.








i also just wanted to thank every single person that has helped me through the past couple of weeks and in particular, past couple of days. you dont know how much it means to me. it's time like these that i realise what i have and the kindness that is embedded within you all. hope everybody has a great week, see you soon, readers! and for those who haven't already, please visit lisa's and my shop here!

Labels: everyday, mock trial, shop, wishlist

beloved readers, i apologise in advance because my brain is too tired to recall events in chronological order. whether the following recollections will make your head spin in circles or stuff up some sort of continuum, i am not liable for. with that, let's proceed!

this week has been so rigorous and i never noticed until today. i was too caught up in too many things happening around me to realise that i had worked myself extra hard just to not have to dwell on grief or negativity. the early morning and late afternoon mock trial meetings alongside my before/after school classes acted as good distractions. however, the long nap i took today made me realised how hectic it has indeed been! i'm not complaining though and am gladly willing to continue pouring my heart and soul into my extra curricular activities! sometimes i do wish i had a physical hobby like basketball or doing lunges in my underwear in front of the mirror-- my brain just gets so drained out.

speaking of basketball. on thursday, margaret (infamous bubble girl as of this week's chemistry lesson) encouraged me to go down and try out the new sport equipment with her. i was quite reluctant but her enthusiasm was convincing enough. i was laughing the whole time because margaret and i were the only two girls in that area-- and the only two senior girls at that. little year 8 and 9 boys running around playing very well, and even though in our heads we were thinking, "they got nothin' on us!" we knew we were outnumbered and they were going to conquer what was left of 'our' area on the court. booo. i spent more time dodging my basketball than dribbling or shooting it.

had first round elimination mock trial today. what can i say? i absolutely adore my team and our coaches. i would claim they are like my 4th family, only because 2nd and 3rd spots have already been announced by me some time ago. lynch drove us there in the school van/bus thingy and being the gangster that he is, he had his favourite radio station on: 96.1, full of rap and rnb. roll up by wiz khalifa came on and he said something to the effect of, "this is my song" and continued to turn up the volume really loudly and his window down. cruisin'. cruisin' in hurlstone agricultural's van. we kool

the trial in itself was bloody fantastic! i had so much fun being "ms tran, instructing solicitor for the defence" and working with avi and luke as barristers went very well. cannot believe we won by 50 or so points, compared to the last round where we scraped the win by 4 points. got my revenge on elderslie. for those who dont know, they beat our team in regional grand final debate last year. and made me cry so much. how embarrasing. what people say is right; dont get mad, get even! i ended up scoring more than their solicitor which was quite a shock to me though. they presented their notes to the magistrate in nice labelled folders with perfectly punched holes and everything. and then there was me. just ripped pages out of my dog-earred paper pad. yo yo yo. lynch has a new nickname for me; the transter. wonder if it's going to catch on like how 'wendy' soon became a verb in the grade after the year 10 incident. lynch is also a bit worried that i stay up past midnight so mental note: no more emailing him notes at 1am to avoid more lectures. yawn.

on tuesday, margaret, lisa and i had to perform a model of precipitation. this was nothing more than us flapping our arms and pretending to swim around in an imaginary solution. then we started to bump into each other to show colliding ions. impressive? mr geerling didnt think so. i told him i didnt think his blonde eyebrows were impressive. in case you haven't noticed, his eyebrows are rather light compared to his hair. something i didn't fail to point out to the whole class. hahahahahaha. ha.

legal kiddies, let's get a move on!!!!!

we're stuck together like paper and school glue
while we gotta think smart as students at school do

Labels: mock trial

http://pettyporcelain.blogspot.com/

things have been changing and happening very rapidly lately! to say i am overwhelmed and exhausted would be an understatement. there has been so much going on, too many things i've been involved in! such terrifyingly busy days but oh, it has been so worth every cell in my body working hard to keep me conscious through it all.

this weekend has been full of wonderful things that have created spectacular memories. friday meant staying at school until 9pm, appreciating and enjoying hurlstone's talent. had so much fun with the src execs on stage! thankyou to thai and alvin who did not complain once about transposing the song about a couple gazillion times to suit my voice. i practised too much from 3pm-7pm that my voice started to die and hence, not being able to hit the extremely high notes of the song! the support from everyone who came and cheered and screamed and yelled out my name and clapped at certain parts of the song... *yay* you guys seriously had me buzzing all the way home even though by the time i got home, i could not even move a muscle. i have not felt that physically drained in a while!

today was country fair which demanded more performances from my already strained voice. and once again, my friends came to support me. unfreakingbelievable. i want to apologise for putting you guys through my performances...i had fun singing 'kelsey' and 'so much love' but maybe on the receiving end, it wasn't too great. the support from everyone is incredible. i really really really really really really strongly really really like you guys. bordering line love. tehehehe. then my learned colleague, mr. avi kumar, agreed to help me finish my closing address. best way to spend a saturday day out at hahs's country fair, eh? chilled. on the hill-ed? yup. i'm a poet and i know it.

amazing race organised by the lovely genevieve in was so much fun! huffing and puffing around hurlstone to the many puzzled looks from visitors to search for clues was fuuuuun! thanks gen for putting so much effort into it! oh, and of course, my team won ;) thanks christie, marge and michelle for being such great budz. we took turns running each leg, christie said, and i quote, "i'm going to have a heart attack soon!" we are so unfit. hehehe.

nicholas' and mitchell's birthday had a good turn out! had so much fun, so many people were there. the amount of hugs i received and gave out today seriously contributed to the happiness i am still feeling right now. just so great to eat with my group then mingle with everyone else in the grade!

my life seems to be taking a new direction right about now. my outlook has completely changed and the motivation is starting to seep back into my system again. the regerets and lamentations still exist but no longer constitute my daily existence or frame my mentality. i would have never believed it but those words of comfort that only served as temporary soothers a few months ago are now coming true.

the amazing powers that all those around me possessed used to try and bring me back to normal were unbelievable. there is nothing that i can do or say to express how thankful i am to have friends like you. you know who you are, each and every. you know it. you may not have seen me at the worst point in that whole predicament, but you definitely had a taste of it. you had a taste of it, didn't like it, and worked hard to help fix me.

to my special group: my 16 lovelies. the empathy exhibited, hugs offered, tissues given, credit wasted, phone calls made, sleepovers held, beds offered, food given and comfort in all forms will never be forgotten by me. you guys nurtured me to look around at the many pieces of myself that i had scattered everywhere and to pick them up and put myself back together. you guys rebuilt the tracks for my train to run through once again. who knows what i'd be like right now without you. i'm not just repeating those cliches, i mean it with all my heart, the heart you guys pieced back together. i am ever so grateful. (photos from lisathegay hehe)












and thats why i smile. it's been a while since every day and everything has felt this right.

the last, the final
tell me you are listening
that you are
listening
tell me the truth.
if you keep it inside
there will never be another
time, time is gone.
distance is hitting.
so tell me that you are
listening
you dont remember
but you havent forgotten
reach out and tell me
and i will be
listening
because you were the one that let go
but you taught me to never say no, so
every single thing
i will listen
i will accept
every little thing we'll lose
close up smiles, park benches, 4am and awake

but you taught me to never say no
how come you were the one that let go, so

every little thing we'll lose
the mornings, dreams, breaths we'll make
every thing, you are at lost
because i have found, but you wont take

felt like an actual chemist in chemistry. had around 25 dropper bottles on our lab desk, ready to mix the cations with the anions and watch them form pwetty colours. everything was going well, i even started to understand and recognise the chemical formulas for each of the solutions. until. suddenly. my right hand gets all red and spotty! and itchy. cant forget itchy. then my nose got itchy and i couldnt scratch it because i didnt want to transfer the disease from my hand onto my nose. then i remembered i had my left hand so that was easily fixed. after sticking it out for about 15 minutes like a real man, i told mr geerling incase one of the chemicals had mixed with my skin and an explosion was imminent.

"sir, my hand's all red!"
"so?"
"it's weird, sir!"
"does it hurt?"
"no, but it's itchy."
"run it under water."
"that's all?"
"yeah. what do you want?"

where are his motherly instincts when i need them? where is this apparent duty of care that teachers have? huh? huh? goodness knows what could have happened in the opposite corner to me where lisa was mixing all our ionic solutions together. lead, carbonate, sodium, lead, silver, potassium, calcium and dare i say, more. did geerling notice? NO. in one test tube, she cooked up some sort of yellow/green/black/purple colour. snazzy.

today was a good day otherwise. recesses and lunches were well spent in the company of my lovely girlies. three out of the six periods saw us having subs and there was no offline because math teacher was away but more importantly will be no offline tomorrow morning either! huzzaaaaaah! hung out with my mock trial mates in legal, yo yo yo and bludged. music made me laugh too hard with mike doing great imitations of timpanis and nikkida and anna figuring out that our music teacher looks like chandler. heh.

my adoration for midi/maxi skirts have risen to new heights! ever since trying on some during my shopping adventures a month or so ago, the desire to acquire one has been beating against my skull. today, vanessa told me about her skirt purchase over the weekend-- jealous. wearing lisa lai's looooooong mesh skirt on saturday night made me feel like a pixie. no longer is the fear of tripping over or fraying the hems in my sight: their beauty and comfortability overrides all. all the babies below are from asos but should be mine. in approximate order of want. could you just imagine twirling in one of them?!?! ah! just looking at them brings tears to my eyes.








i also just wanted to thank every single person that has helped me through the past couple of weeks and in particular, past couple of days. you dont know how much it means to me. it's time like these that i realise what i have and the kindness that is embedded within you all. hope everybody has a great week, see you soon, readers! and for those who haven't already, please visit lisa's and my shop here!

Labels: everyday, mock trial, shop, wishlist

beloved readers, i apologise in advance because my brain is too tired to recall events in chronological order. whether the following recollections will make your head spin in circles or stuff up some sort of continuum, i am not liable for. with that, let's proceed!

this week has been so rigorous and i never noticed until today. i was too caught up in too many things happening around me to realise that i had worked myself extra hard just to not have to dwell on grief or negativity. the early morning and late afternoon mock trial meetings alongside my before/after school classes acted as good distractions. however, the long nap i took today made me realised how hectic it has indeed been! i'm not complaining though and am gladly willing to continue pouring my heart and soul into my extra curricular activities! sometimes i do wish i had a physical hobby like basketball or doing lunges in my underwear in front of the mirror-- my brain just gets so drained out.

speaking of basketball. on thursday, margaret (infamous bubble girl as of this week's chemistry lesson) encouraged me to go down and try out the new sport equipment with her. i was quite reluctant but her enthusiasm was convincing enough. i was laughing the whole time because margaret and i were the only two girls in that area-- and the only two senior girls at that. little year 8 and 9 boys running around playing very well, and even though in our heads we were thinking, "they got nothin' on us!" we knew we were outnumbered and they were going to conquer what was left of 'our' area on the court. booo. i spent more time dodging my basketball than dribbling or shooting it.

had first round elimination mock trial today. what can i say? i absolutely adore my team and our coaches. i would claim they are like my 4th family, only because 2nd and 3rd spots have already been announced by me some time ago. lynch drove us there in the school van/bus thingy and being the gangster that he is, he had his favourite radio station on: 96.1, full of rap and rnb. roll up by wiz khalifa came on and he said something to the effect of, "this is my song" and continued to turn up the volume really loudly and his window down. cruisin'. cruisin' in hurlstone agricultural's van. we kool

the trial in itself was bloody fantastic! i had so much fun being "ms tran, instructing solicitor for the defence" and working with avi and luke as barristers went very well. cannot believe we won by 50 or so points, compared to the last round where we scraped the win by 4 points. got my revenge on elderslie. for those who dont know, they beat our team in regional grand final debate last year. and made me cry so much. how embarrasing. what people say is right; dont get mad, get even! i ended up scoring more than their solicitor which was quite a shock to me though. they presented their notes to the magistrate in nice labelled folders with perfectly punched holes and everything. and then there was me. just ripped pages out of my dog-earred paper pad. yo yo yo. lynch has a new nickname for me; the transter. wonder if it's going to catch on like how 'wendy' soon became a verb in the grade after the year 10 incident. lynch is also a bit worried that i stay up past midnight so mental note: no more emailing him notes at 1am to avoid more lectures. yawn.

on tuesday, margaret, lisa and i had to perform a model of precipitation. this was nothing more than us flapping our arms and pretending to swim around in an imaginary solution. then we started to bump into each other to show colliding ions. impressive? mr geerling didnt think so. i told him i didnt think his blonde eyebrows were impressive. in case you haven't noticed, his eyebrows are rather light compared to his hair. something i didn't fail to point out to the whole class. hahahahahaha. ha.

legal kiddies, let's get a move on!!!!!

we're stuck together like paper and school glue
while we gotta think smart as students at school do

Labels: mock trial