the past 365 days have definitely been more than a couple of whirlwinds. i have learnt and been taught so much about family, love, friends, support, true gratefulness: life lessons that have allowed me to become a better person.

the good have definitely outweighed the bad. it is with that that i will proceed to say that every individual's presence in the course of my existence as a 16 year old has brought me utter happiness and joy in one way or another. whether it be letting me umbrella-hop, buying me a chuppa-chup so i don't die of starvation in extension class, reading this damned blog, lending me a shoulder so i can stain your shirt with my tears or, conversely, diluting the mustard and ketchup on my shirt collar so it won't stain-- i thank you all sincerely for taking care of me. so many of you have played a part in shaping me and my perspectives. i am so thankful.

so many of you brought me back onto my feet when real tragedies knocked me over. so many of you guided me when i was blind, talked to me when i didn't want to talk, strolled meaninglessly around with me on cracked footpaths in wet weather, made me smile, made me laugh, made me know again when i didn't know, made me understand that i had more blessings than i could ever count.

regrets and memories still travel along the tracks of my mind in terminating trains. every so often, i'm held back by that halt of guilt or lament. there are things i would do differently. things i wish i could take back. people who i wish were still here. but it is with the beautiful nature that each of you have provided me, or sour worms (depending on the situation), that i strive and manage to continue moving forward.

my being as a 16 year old comes to an end tonight but i really can't imagine how it could be any better in my next year of existence. i guess the real comfort is that, even though i don't know how, you guys will only continue to enrich my life in greater and better ways.

actually, i don't guess that. i know that.

just gave my bangs a bit of a chop today. i feel a bit exposed.

a bright and lovely saturday that's not too hot! i'm starting to miss winter a whole lot. what has happened? i used to look forward to summer so much. actually, i used to look forward to the nice, artificial coolness produced by the air conditioner so much. if it wasnt for the constant nagging in my head by my conscience chanting, "study. study. study." i'd say i'm having a good weekend.

this week has proven to be a wild emotional rollercoaster ride. what's new, you may be thinking, given that i am probably one of the most irrationally dramatic people you know. no. i cant even count up how many times i've been upset, distraught, disappointed, frustrated and that's a bit of a shame because one of the best achievements in my life occurred on thursday: getting through to the grand finals for mock trial!



the feeling's just indescribable. to look at that roster and think wow, we have made it to the end, we are at the end! the trial on thursday was probably one of our best ones yet in many respects. i feel so privileged to have been first given the opportunity to undertake the position of solicitor during round 5, which was white v purple. working with avi and luke that round was so much fun! i was barrister for one of the rounds after that but otherwise, have been solicitor until now. i love it so much. knowing that both the barristers are technically meant to listen to whatever i say and whatever i feed them. hehehe. going crazy with power. dont worry, i will not be hitler anytime soon.

i love the hurlstone mock trial team 2011 and no matter what happens in the grand final: every minute of preparation, waking up early in mornings, staying at school til evening, sacrificing lunch times, using up all credit was all worth it.

so if you're a mock trial-er from killara/john paul college, you better watch out. (i'm only writing this because i, personally, stalk all the teams we come up against...so if you're trying to see who you're trying to beat in the grand final, look at that photo up there and realise that i'm really not that scary. i'm just some small asian girl. yeah, you might as well not prep at all, yknow?)

kokkinis (captain of farrer, yo) and i are going to thainamic tonight! for what reason, i dont know. pre 17th celebrations? opportunity to catch up over dinner is just too good to miss. year 12 has gotten in the way of a lot of things. then again, year 12 is the priority now and in that case, i guess everything's just getting in the way of year 12 :(

in other news...finally got my grade 8 certificate! i have officially passed grade 8 hehehehehehe






christmas is soon! oh the thrill of buying a present and more importantly, wrapping it. i dont know if many of you know but yes, i do have a whole 100cmx40cm drawer dedicated to wrapping paper, ribbon, tags and tape! i am involved in two kris kringles this year. i think it's so so nice that avi's group invited me to join. and that troy and emily offer to drive us to maccas all the time. and andrew tolerates me calling him luigi because he's italian. and even luke's starting to say hi to me first if i walk past and help me with mock trial stuff and actually respond without sarcasm to my comments! everyone's so nice and welcoming, i'm so grateful!

hope ya'll has a fantastic weekend! and remember: food is friend.

the past 365 days have definitely been more than a couple of whirlwinds. i have learnt and been taught so much about family, love, friends, support, true gratefulness: life lessons that have allowed me to become a better person.

the good have definitely outweighed the bad. it is with that that i will proceed to say that every individual's presence in the course of my existence as a 16 year old has brought me utter happiness and joy in one way or another. whether it be letting me umbrella-hop, buying me a chuppa-chup so i don't die of starvation in extension class, reading this damned blog, lending me a shoulder so i can stain your shirt with my tears or, conversely, diluting the mustard and ketchup on my shirt collar so it won't stain-- i thank you all sincerely for taking care of me. so many of you have played a part in shaping me and my perspectives. i am so thankful.

so many of you brought me back onto my feet when real tragedies knocked me over. so many of you guided me when i was blind, talked to me when i didn't want to talk, strolled meaninglessly around with me on cracked footpaths in wet weather, made me smile, made me laugh, made me know again when i didn't know, made me understand that i had more blessings than i could ever count.

regrets and memories still travel along the tracks of my mind in terminating trains. every so often, i'm held back by that halt of guilt or lament. there are things i would do differently. things i wish i could take back. people who i wish were still here. but it is with the beautiful nature that each of you have provided me, or sour worms (depending on the situation), that i strive and manage to continue moving forward.

my being as a 16 year old comes to an end tonight but i really can't imagine how it could be any better in my next year of existence. i guess the real comfort is that, even though i don't know how, you guys will only continue to enrich my life in greater and better ways.

actually, i don't guess that. i know that.

just gave my bangs a bit of a chop today. i feel a bit exposed.

a bright and lovely saturday that's not too hot! i'm starting to miss winter a whole lot. what has happened? i used to look forward to summer so much. actually, i used to look forward to the nice, artificial coolness produced by the air conditioner so much. if it wasnt for the constant nagging in my head by my conscience chanting, "study. study. study." i'd say i'm having a good weekend.

this week has proven to be a wild emotional rollercoaster ride. what's new, you may be thinking, given that i am probably one of the most irrationally dramatic people you know. no. i cant even count up how many times i've been upset, distraught, disappointed, frustrated and that's a bit of a shame because one of the best achievements in my life occurred on thursday: getting through to the grand finals for mock trial!



the feeling's just indescribable. to look at that roster and think wow, we have made it to the end, we are at the end! the trial on thursday was probably one of our best ones yet in many respects. i feel so privileged to have been first given the opportunity to undertake the position of solicitor during round 5, which was white v purple. working with avi and luke that round was so much fun! i was barrister for one of the rounds after that but otherwise, have been solicitor until now. i love it so much. knowing that both the barristers are technically meant to listen to whatever i say and whatever i feed them. hehehe. going crazy with power. dont worry, i will not be hitler anytime soon.

i love the hurlstone mock trial team 2011 and no matter what happens in the grand final: every minute of preparation, waking up early in mornings, staying at school til evening, sacrificing lunch times, using up all credit was all worth it.

so if you're a mock trial-er from killara/john paul college, you better watch out. (i'm only writing this because i, personally, stalk all the teams we come up against...so if you're trying to see who you're trying to beat in the grand final, look at that photo up there and realise that i'm really not that scary. i'm just some small asian girl. yeah, you might as well not prep at all, yknow?)

kokkinis (captain of farrer, yo) and i are going to thainamic tonight! for what reason, i dont know. pre 17th celebrations? opportunity to catch up over dinner is just too good to miss. year 12 has gotten in the way of a lot of things. then again, year 12 is the priority now and in that case, i guess everything's just getting in the way of year 12 :(

in other news...finally got my grade 8 certificate! i have officially passed grade 8 hehehehehehe






christmas is soon! oh the thrill of buying a present and more importantly, wrapping it. i dont know if many of you know but yes, i do have a whole 100cmx40cm drawer dedicated to wrapping paper, ribbon, tags and tape! i am involved in two kris kringles this year. i think it's so so nice that avi's group invited me to join. and that troy and emily offer to drive us to maccas all the time. and andrew tolerates me calling him luigi because he's italian. and even luke's starting to say hi to me first if i walk past and help me with mock trial stuff and actually respond without sarcasm to my comments! everyone's so nice and welcoming, i'm so grateful!

hope ya'll has a fantastic weekend! and remember: food is friend.